do you remember?

do you remember at the airport in new delhi i got angry with you for a minor thing and yelled at you, which made you cry. Later on, I felt terrible about it and promised myself never to make you cry like that. Whenever I'd remember that incident, no matter how many years later, it would always make me feel bad.
Then the other day you cried again in that small room, and I saw your tears on the desk. It really broke my heart, and I realized I had broken my promnise to myself. I really hated myself then, and you may forgive me for your tears someday, but I shall never forgive myself.
I cannot change that past now, but I can make the future better. I shall always be nice to you and never hurt you again. I am very very sorry. I won't ask you to forgive me, but please believe my regret and my sincere efforts from now on to be a better person to you.

R

2009年の10月にここに載せて、また今、2010年の3月に同じものを載せている。

もう、5ヶ月もたったなんて全然思えない。なんだかもっと短かかった気もするし、もっと長かった気もする。

time distortion　が問題なのではなくて、5ヵ月後にまたこれを載せたということ。

彼は私の中に生きていて、これからもずっと生き続けるだろう。